Saturday, July 09, 2005

It Is So Hard Saying Goodbye


Jet
Originally uploaded by Raine1.
We only had her for a year and a half but I hope that time was the best time of her too short life.

My Son chose her from all the others looking for a family to adopt.

She was a character all right.
And pretty too.
A collector of paper and plastic.
She would hunt all the secret corners of "her house"...and then bring her finds to the living room......
packages of tampons, receipts, bills... (yes, thank you Jet, I will pay that asap, hon)
four 8X10 sheets of paper at one time!
She even got me busted a few times..
her discoveries dropped at the feet of my Ex!! LOL
Yes, we Will miss you.
Like a little rabbit you were, hopping and jumping all the time.

I wish it were true about Cats having nine lives.....
I just hope the One you had with us was good.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

My Un, Semi, and Conscious Mind


Travel by night
Originally uploaded by
Raine1.

I have been sharing my 20+year old dream journal.

Hope you are finding it as hilarious as I do, especially if you’re in there!! (Frances)

Are you starting to see a common theme?

In my dreams I was often:

Scared (based on the pot references could have been paranoia)
Drunk (the alcoholics wet dream)
Stoned
Uneasy around basements (It was the Eighties, it was the Beaches - the Cellar - you got in you got out!)
People and animals died (bad semi, unconscious mind!!)
and Susan did a lot more in my dreams than she did awake (You go girl!!…peer pressure in lala land!!)

Sunday, June 19, 2005

I must have had cheese before bedtime

I was in a roller skating rink with a bunch of pigs
– I mean hogs.
It was weird.
This man was there who had on a gold helmet which was supposed to be an heirloom....like from a King. My mom was there and she wanted to keep it a secret because "they" would take it off him. But this man got out of hand and he got put into a tomb in the middle of this rink. Another man who thought he was going into the tomb to talk to this raving person, also got locked in.
Then I saw them putting these two “scarecrow” type bodies into a wagon and I knew it was those guys....now dead.
Then I was in the wagon with some guy. We were going through a forest, my clothes were in the wagon and I was putting them on hangers. We stopped and I saw the outline of a face – lighted in the distance. It was a demon.
Then this man was there and we were “supposed” to follow him….for some reason I thought it was all a movie called "the Urgency" and I said “I have no urge to follow you” thinking that he should have some sort of power over me, but he didn’t.
When we got inside this place he said “go upstairs”. There was Fran, Cathy and me and we all climbed the stairs side by side but the stairs just went up oneside and down the other…I said “we look like Charlies Angels”. The man was laughing and he said “Not up....down” so we went down stairs.

Ok..Its a Dream already!!!

as written...a long time ago...

I was with a friend, who I don't know, in a kind of subway.
I found a budgy and a parrot. The parrot flew away I think, well he was not around long anyway.
I was afraid the budgy was going to fly away so I hung on to him, around his stomach. Not tight. Well he got sick, like he was dying, he needed water. So I gave him some water when we got to this place which was supposedly Cornelius.
A wasp was going after him, and the wasp was the same size, so I got him a cage and gave him some food and water.
I had a scratch on my hand so my friend suggested I see her father who was a doctor. We did and he was a quack, he wanted all my clothes off for a bird bite on my hand.
I went back to look at the budgy and he was up to his ears in bird seed, literally.
I started to pick out some of the seeds but he was dead.

I LOVE DREAMING!!!!!


Don't try this at home
Originally uploaded by Raine1.

Ok, so here's the thing....I love dreaming. Anyone with me on this?
It's the Best. I even write songs with great music!! Damn, I wish I played something I'd be rich.

A long time ago I used to keep a pen and paper by my bed and when I had a dream I could remember..when the thoughts were clear in my head but still 3/4 asleep (go figure) I would jot them down. In the morning..that scribble would bring it all back and I would write as much of the dream down straight away.

Man, it was very interesting to say the least to see how fucked up my brain was(is).

Well I kept them!!! and I'm now going to devote some of my blog to them. Because I have absolutley nothing else going on to blog about.
I hope you enjoy the "stories".

Please do not analyze..it was a LONG time ago as you will see from some of the guests!!!!

Offline


This is how bloggers dream
Originally uploaded by Raine1.

I can totally relate to this...this has happened to me...
I'm so glad to know I am not the only one.
Me and cartoon guy have something in common. I know!! I have to get out and meet real people.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

The Flies that bind us....


Keith
Originally uploaded by Raine1.

You know those bugs that you see in the suns rays, flying all about.
Everywhere I look I see them!
Clusters, all hanging out together.
Are they actually Everywhere?
And you just don’t notice them buzzing all around your head?
Egads!!!

I sit back watching a group (a group! Ha! like a million zillion) of them frolic and play in the sunlight…..and I’m like “oh my god, check out the feeding frenzy on my neighbour Keith’s head, Loser!”

And then I realize that my neighbour is looking over at me and thinking “look at all those flies buzzing about Raine, how odd”

Ok then…

I can deal with those sunlight bugs,
whateva,
I’m normally drinking beer or Smirnoff Ice anyway and we have that chillin in the sun thing in common.

You supposedly swallow spiders every night, too!
Ummmm, NOT buying that one people.
I need my sleep

Sunday, May 29, 2005

10-4 Come In.....(go out, come in, go out.....)


Get Home! Over.
Originally uploaded by Raine1.

My son’s father was here earlier, to provide insisted back up manning the kid pit/rest stop. Someone must always be on duty. It’s an essential service.
As those kids come and go and come and stay and go all day long!!!
And in varying numbers and combinations. Tag team style…“just got back from the cottage” style.

Mitz came by …
and that created a window of opportunity for the father……(i.e. he left)
Then the sun went in, so - so did we, (guilt free cause of the rain).
Mitzzee left …
and the sun came back out
Then my kid split.
The fathers long gone, Sunday afternoon games
Now I’m all-alone but can’t leave the house again,
whilst the child rides his bicycle around the neighborhood looking for more children to entertain and feed here, intermittently, throughout the day.

(Waaaaaaaaaaaa, I want to be on a patio!!)

Thank god for laptops, beer, cordless phones, walkie-talkies………
Never leave home without them…...well, never leave home actually :(

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Confidence? Conceit? or Just Con


Ego
Originally uploaded by Raine1.
(yeah its back on...
revisiting some old thoughts that shouldn't have been erased)

He says he NEVER gets left
He has champagne taste in Women
Picks only beautiful ones
That's what his "problem is" - (he was told)
He's had many
Exotic types too
A man with a "List"
and sub lists
He's running 98% at keeping everything "friendly" - after - he likes his record
Don't love him because he knows you do and doesn't love you back
Has 70 numbers in his phone
He will ask for backup if a date becomes unavailable
He gets offers "put right to him" - all he has to do is call
And,
if you choose to hate him, its your perogative - his conscience is clear
Who is he?
He's Full of Themselves Guy

Age 37...(update yearly)

he doesn't have a job
can't cross the border
doesn't drive
and can barely walk
lives with his dad
but stays in his room
he cries too easy
and sulks too much

He's Full of Shit Guy

Thursday, May 19, 2005

I need to get me an older man


Chris Isaak
Originally uploaded by Raine1.
the most lovable, quirky, rockabilly surfer dude on the planet....
he has still got it goin on!!

Thought you might need a lift....


A Dirty Shame
Originally uploaded by Raine1.
Damned Gravity!!!

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

Moms and Their Snooping

Three women are discussing their teenage daughters.

The first declares: I was so shocked last week. I was tidying my daughter's room and I found a package of cigarettes under her pillow. I didn't even know that she smoked!"

"It gets worse than that" says the second mother. "I was tidying my daughter's room last week and I found a bottle of vodka under her bed. I didn't even know that she drank!"

"Oh, it gets even worse than that" says the third mother. "I was tidying my daughter's room last week and you'll never guess what I found in her bedside table: a packet of condoms!"
I didn't even know she had a penis!"

Wanna come over to my Crib?


Granny
Originally uploaded by Raine1.

Divine Intervention


Divine
Originally uploaded by Raine1.
I know why The Bachelor did not pick "Chrissilly"
......Her MOTHER!!!!
...and the rest of the clan!
He was lucky he took a camera crew or he may never have gotten outa there.
Locked in the cellar for the rest of his days Dancing and @#$%^&@ with Nana.

John Waters, you just cast your next movie!!!

Friday, May 13, 2005

Ma!!! I got an A

The guy sharing the double seat with me on the subway was sitting a little too close.
The full length of his leg pressing against mine..from thigh to knee.
I couldn’t help but see the forms he was holding.
Some sort of Anger Management Questionaire on institutional looking green paper.

He rated a 5 on:
1) I use anger to get what I want


Was that out of 10 I hoped
…….......or a perfect score?

Oh hell, it’s only a few more stops!!

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Man, he's good!!!

The Grade 4 teacher called.
My kid was acting up again.
Mr. T. explained it all and told me how much my son was FREAKING that he might call The Dad.
After school the student had his Grandma call:

“he wants to talk to you………he’s running away…here he is…”

“Mommy?
Did you tell Daddy?
I’ll give you 20 bucks if you don’t tell Daddy.
No doubt about it…. I’ll be dead. From Daddy. Its true.
Tell me the deal so I don’t have to worry…..all I want is you not to tell daddy. Ok. Deal?
It’s fine with me…as long as I don’t get whacked by Daddy its fine by me.
You ARE gonna tell Daddy!!!!!
Oh No!!!!
I’m punished enough.
You’re gonna let the bad Daddy outa the cage?!…the bull outa the cage!…his name is Joe ______!!
I won’t be able to hear once Joe starts yelling.
Mommy will you support me.
If you don’t get home before Daddy I will say my last words………goodbye.
It won’t be funny when I’m gone.
Nana, Goodbye.”





Tuesday, May 03, 2005

who needs talent when you've got Frankie D to exploit

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 1:25 PM
To: Frank
Subject:

Ok, so since you’ve been up around the Davisville area I have seen you…what...one time? and that was when you accidentally snuck up on me…so all that
“we’ll do lunch yada yada, go a walk blah blah, hook up etc etc…was all talk…yeah that’s right ALL TALK…that’s YOU - talkative….
p.s…..I really liked that song…that YOU left on my voicemail…(I saw your extension)…had a nice beat….

….."I feel like I don’t know which way to go my head is in a spin I feel like calling in sick (?) my baby’s puttin me down I don’t know which way to go my head is in a spin..la la ta de da da"

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:21
To: me
Subject: RE:

O.K. smarty pants....do you like Japanese food?

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:22 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

Why are we going to Japan now?! That’s a really big way to make up!!! :) :)

-----Original Message-----
From: FrankS
ent: May 2, 2005 15:23
To: me
Subject: RE:

Hey, you know me, I spare no expense, especially when you're paying!!!

-----Original Message-----
From: me
To: Frank
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:24 PM
Subject: RE:

Ummmm, have you ever heard of a 622 negative pay adjustment?

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:26
To: me
Subject: RE:

Do eat Japanese food?

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:26 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

OK I will then…...thats not a question

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:27
To: me
Subject: RE:

I'm using a Japanese accent!

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:28 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

Ahhhhh, soooooo

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:28
To: me
Subject: RE:

Oh Yeahhhhhhhh Sooooooooooooo!

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:31 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

Ok this is almost my last “MSN” to you……I have actually never had Japanese food…except for Tanaka of Tokyo…or that Benihana place….way back…that was meaty…good…don’t want raw fish ok?
Did I get the lyrics of your song right?
Are you taking me out or something…I’m a bit confused now!!
You were creating a diversion so I’d have to pay, right?

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:44
To: me
Subject: RE:

Here's the deal little buddy.
You keep telling me that I am neglecting my "big buddy friend" duties, as I've been at 1910 for over a month and we haven't hooked up for lunch. So, I'm saying to you let's go to lunch..you know "manja"... "food"... "eat"... "chow"..."grub"..."mmm good". I simply suggested Japanese because there's a great place up the street. If you know of a place where we can chill and grab a bite to eat at lunchtime let me know, I'm flexible. If it stops raining, let's hit a patio this week, keep me posted.
Later,
Dazed & Confused

-----Original Message-----
From: me
Sent: Monday, May 02, 2005 3:47 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

PATIO!!!! If you could see me you’d see I’m jumping up and down clapping….
Not really
But do like that idea!!!
I’ll call you man!
Thanks

-----Original Message-----
From: Frank
Sent: May 2, 2005 15:50
To: me
Subject: RE:

Call me man....don't worry, we'll go Dutch!

From: me
Sent: Mon 5/2/2005 3:51 PM
To: Frank
Subject: RE:

Alright, don’t start this up again..you said Japanese

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Emails from Michelle

-----Original Message-----

From: Michelle

Sent: April 28, 2005 09:43

To: (Me)

Subject: FW: To all those that have participated in my life....Thanks..

One day, when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.

His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself,

"Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."

I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him.

He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives."

He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude. I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now. I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.

Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again. I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday! " He just laughed and handed me half the books. Over the next four years, ! Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke. I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship.

Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.

Boy, sometimes I was jealous. ! Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "! Thanks," he said. As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began "

Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach... but mostly your friends... I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."

I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile. "Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.


Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse.


-----Original Message-----

From: (Me)

Sent: April 28, 2005 10:07

To: Michelle

Subject: RE: To all those that have participated in my life....Thanks..


Ok, are your trying to make me cry like a baby....... is it not enough for you that my eyes are watery with sickness
When I first met you.....I had planned to party like a beast all weekend...I had cleaned out my desk drawers in case I had a hangover on Monday still and would need my magazines, cutlery, hairspray and shoes
You touched my life and I saw that partying was not the way to go..... So I just went home....watched Trading Spaces Saturday night, dreamed of Eddie... Joe went out with Ange and I didn't even notice....
Thank you my little pal


-----Original Message-----

From: Michelle

Sent: April 28, 2005 14:27

To: (Me)

Subject: RE: To all those that have participated in my life....Thanks..


When I first met you I knew you planned to party like a beast all weekend and I decided to sabotage that because I had no life at the time and was going home to bond with my cats. Although I knew that sometime in the future I would be your designated driver and would be in charge of getting you out of Eddie's place and through your own front door.
P.S. the only reason you saw that partying was not the way to go was because you don't utilize your drivers license and you knew that in order to take all of your shoes home you would need to rent a u-haul.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

My Cycle's All Off

I’m having a relationship problem.
You can tell from my blog.
If you can put two and two together you can see a pattern.
An on and off and on and off pattern.
Judging from his calculated calculations we’re off now.
But there was a blip and we were on for a few hours.
I hope we can be on for just a little bit in the summer because I can’t bbq very well.
Then its ok to be off cause my friends do lots of stuff then.
On, when my deck’s getting built….I need him to sit on it once.
I don’t know why.